It’s been a few weeks since I lasted posted, but don’t worry, I haven’t given up.
I know myself well enough to know that this is still my Heartbreak Hill moment. I’m at that point in the race where I’ve given up so many times before.
Of course, this triggers a shame-spiral, self-loathing, and fuels the fear that I’m just a big hypocrite. The more time goes by, the more I feel like a fraud, like someone pretending to be a writer.
But, I know that the more honest I am about my process, the sooner I can move through this stage.
Because, I can move beyond this. I’m not going to beat myself up, or let myself give up.
Instead, I want to take an honest look at why I’m procrastinating. Why do I feel stuck? I know that I want this project to be successful. I know that I want to get it done. I’m stuck because of that underlying pressure to be perfect and for our creations to be perfect.
I want you to know that wherever you are in your creative cycle, you’re not alone.
If you’re not creating, it doesn’t mean you’re a bad artist.
It doesn’t mean you’re a fraud or a hypocrite.
Even if you haven’t written or created in years, you’re still an artist.
Shame and guilt don’t help us, they just keep us feeling stuck.
So, the new game plan = Set goals that are so teeny-tiny and achievable that I’m guaranteed to set myself up for success.
All I need to do this week:
New deadline = Saturday, September 19th
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